A Brief College Update

Three months later, and I have completed my first semester of full time college.
Four classes, three finals, and countless moments and memories made.
In September I wrote a post about how college was a lot harder than I expected.
The friendship and connection that I so deeply craved was not happening.
A month and a half later near the end of October, I felt like I was beginning to make friends, but I was still so terribly self conscious. "Do these people actually like me?" "Am I being annoying?"
Never in my life have I remembered feeling so unsure about making friends.
Then fast forward to the beginning of December, when I decided to stop taking every little thing personally (They didn't say goodbye, they must hate me), and ACCEPT that these people actually want to be my friends and spend time with me.
How silly am I to think that I am being annoying and people are simply tolerating me when they go out of their way to invite me to places and text me first?
But it is how I felt for a while. Now that the semester is over, I can confidently say I have a friend and classmates who I mutually enjoy spending time with.
And it's really good!
I cannot explain how fulfilled and loved I feel being surrounded by others in community.
I am actually already missing going to class, and I've only been gone for a few days.
College has been so good for me, and I have hopes for the coming semesters.
I'm looking forward to returning, to seeing my friends, to studying, being on the college radio station... all of it.
I am! Living!!

~xoxo

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