Mini Freak-Out

I transfer to a new college in the fall.
I started school at a community college in January 2017, and now I'm going to be a student at the school I actually want to be at.
I've been nervous.
Excited.
Nervous.
It's so stressful, and all of that just builds and builds as the starting date gets closer.
There's so much prep for it that I didn't realize.
A million different forms to fill out and things to do.
And suddenly I am not okay.
And I don't want to go to college anymore.
Because it's all so overwhelming and TOO. DAMN. MUCH.
But I also feel like I've come too far to back out.
And I do want to go and I do want to be there, really, truly.
Just in this moment I am feeling suffocated, and panicked, and way in over my head here.
I am so full of anxiety and fear and trepidation.
I'm worried about it all so very much.
How I'll afford college.
What's going to happen when depression inevitably hits...
Or anxiety.
What if I become a statistic of sexual violence?
God forbid it.
How I'm going to handle a full-time college work load.
What's going to happen to me when I graduate?
Am I going to be able to get a job?
... Am I going to be okay?
I guess time will tell.
Please pray for me.

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