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My Bilateral Salpingectomy Experience

 Hi! Happy almost June! ☀️ Don't listen to me EVER when I say I'll be back soon, because that's proven to be very untrue. I come and go as I like lately. But I am back because I wanted to make a post about my Bisalp experience last January. A bisalp, short for bilateral salpingectomy, is a procedure where both of your fallopian tubes are removed. This is a permanent form of sterilization, and as someone who doesn't want kids, is a choice I am very happy with. :) *NOTE: A bisalp is different from a tubal litigation. The procedure I got completely removes your fallopian tubes. A tubal just ties, cuts, or in some way interrupts the usual path for the egg to travel to the uterus. Bisalps are MUCH more effective and eliminate the risk of an ectopic pregnancy.* I had known that I wanted to be childfree for many many years. So when I got a new gynecologist, I spoke up right away about how I was interested in this procedure. My doctor is AMAZING, so we began the process immedia...
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Life Update

 Wtf bro. I'm STILL stuck at a shitty job. Not the same one from my last post, almost a year ago, but a different shitty job. Where are the Universe's blessings!? Okay wait, lemme pause. There is much to be grateful for, don't get me wrong. My wonderful, amazing partner of nearly two years, living in a cute lil apartment away from home (oh yeah, I MOVED!!!), having enough money to pay for groceries and make rent every month, health insurance (via my shitty job)... Many parts of my life are really good. For the first time in a very long time. Work is the only thing dragging me down. It really sucks that we have to work to live. To simply exist!! Not to share such a hot take, but damn I hate having to plan my own LIFE around work! I can't go to the events I want to, I can't plan a spontaneous trip, I'm too exhausted most days to really go in depth with my hobbies... shit sucks. My partner has a tough job as well that has him coming home late and exhausted. During ...
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I'M BACK BITCH

 Every time I think I'll never return to this blog... here I am. I don't want to ever stop posting here, really. Shit just got busy, I forgot. You know, "life happens" and all that. So this feels like a good time for a life update. Seeing as I haven't posted in almost TWO YEARS. My computer sucks, okay. Plus I was busy with being at college. Nothing crazy. NBD. Let's start there, then. I graduated with a bachelor's degree in communications in May, 2022. So much time, energy, money, and hard work went into that degree. It's super weird to think that in a few months, I'll have been out of college for a whole year already. (And high school for nine. No, I don't wanna talk about it). After that, I continued working at my longtime retail job while I looked for something full-time. Which happened in September. Finding a job is hard, by the way. Especially right out of school when you have little to no experience and everyone seems to expect you to. B...
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Going Through Your First Heartbreak at 24

Most tv shows and movies will have you believing that someone's first heartbreak occurs around high school age... (Disclaimer: Of course there can be other non-romantic relationship related heartbreaks that occur in your life, and those are absolutely valid and painful and real as well. But this story is about breaking up with a partner.) I started dating this girl in September 2020. Our first date was perfect. Then a month later I asked her to be my girlfriend. In the months that followed we celebrated her birthday, Christmas, Valentine's Day. We held hands, went to the art museum, walked around the city. Every time we were together was another little memory. Another little piece of me being altered by being with this person whom I loved. Then she got a job 800 miles away. We decided to try long distance. A few days before she left I realized that it wasn't going to work between us. And we broke up. I'm 24 years old and going through my first heartbreak now. You need t...
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Everything Has Changed

 Happy 2021! We have arrived. (I know I'm late, just pretend?) I've been wanting to write another post here for a while, but I haven't been able to get around to it until now. So much has changed. The obvious, globally, which is COVID-19 impacting every facet of our lives, and the less obvious, personally, in my own life. Since May, I have completed another fall semester of college, part online and part in-person. I am beyond grateful to have been on campus, even a little bit, for a few classes last year. I was also able to achieve straight A's, which in this season has been extra difficult. I am proud of myself. January 19th was my first day back to class for the spring semester, and... it's much like it was 8 months ago. But despite how different and difficult things have been, I have hopes. But my biggest, most exciting change as of October 2020, is me being in my first official relationship. I'm cuffed y'all! On this day three years ago (2018!), I wrote ...
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Some Thoughts on Faith and Christianity

I've been thinking a lot about faith, God, religion, and Christianity in the past year or two. As a middle and high-school student, my faith grew and blossomed. I went to church (and loved it) every week, I participated in the weekly youth small group, I prayed multiple times a day, and I attempted to read my Bible consistently, daily. Then... something happened. Something changed. I'm still not sure what, but I began to look at life and faith and God differently. Now if you're reading this and feeling sorry for me because you view this as "backsliding" or "veering off of the right path," don't. Let me explain. I had truly begun to question some of the teachings of the church, the way the Bible is often interpreted, and my own personal views and beliefs when it comes to faith or religion. In May of 2019, I left my church that I'd been a part of for almost 9 years. I'd been feeling a tug to go, to move on, for a while. I p...
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Life is Crazy: Update in the Midst of a Pandemic

Shit. Is. Crazy. I realize that I haven't written here in a while, and for that I apologize, mostly to myself. Writing is something that I really enjoy, but I've been so busy with school, then, well, you know... Honestly I think we have ALL heard enough about the Coronavirus Pandemic by now, wouldn't you agree? I personally have been out of work and taking classes online since mid-March. I am grateful that my family and I are taken care of and healthy. I am grateful, as I started a new medication recently, and this is a good time for my body to adjust to it. I am grateful that I've gotten to work out way more. It makes me feel strong as hell, and slightly more sane. I am grateful that my friends are well. Despite all of the absolute insanity, uncertainty, and anxiety, I am grateful. (Side note: I also really want a hug, like, so badly. Shout out to my fellow "physical touch is my love language" people.) Being home I've also gotten to organize an...
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